Suffocate...
I have learned to recognise this feeling, and it no longer scares me anymore. Just a minor nuisance, and all I have to do is to not pay any attention to it, continue doing whatever I am doing, and eventually it will go away.
My mum,
The strongest woman I have ever know. Despite her many many flaws (because who doesn't have them) she is still so wonderfully strong. Her depth of positivity is amazing. The procedures she had undergo the pain and aches she suffers everyday the attitude from dad she has to put up with... And yet still being so loving and kind and patient towards her children, putting up with all these 'nuisance' from me. I love her so much.
Learn to listen to your inner voice, stop seeking for advice. Your body knows best, you know best. Life is full of unknown and it can be scary but yet it can be exciting as well. There's always two sides of the coin, it's where you choose to look at that matters.
And I am glad I met you.
Just a random thought, maybe I can write a true raw account of how I overcome this.
Thursday, December 28, 2017
Thursday, December 07, 2017
Challenge
When even the simplest of tasks became a challenge you have to face each day, and even going to class requires great courage, your daily life has become an obstacle course. And it's interesting, and very rewarding at the same time when by the end of the day, you're tucked in all warm and snuggly in bed and you think to yourself, thank you for going through the day, thank you for being strong, you are one step better towards a better you. (before the sleep anxiety kicks in that is, but let's not go into there now). Daily living has become a survival skill, and at the back of my mind, I can't help but to wonder can I do more? I used to do so much more than this.
Drawing bounderies, recognising self-worth. Depends on where you stand it can be seen as self-love or selfish. 'If you love yourself you wouldn't want to let yourself continue feeling this way.' True.
Just because I can't do this doesn't mean I am worse than the other. I can, just I don't want to. And I can do other stuff instead - eg letting go and self love. I am brave. I am braver and stronger than I think I am.
This may seem like reassurance. But it's true.
I am no longer defined by my achievements, positions nor title. I am no longer defined by people's perspectives on me or how much they like me. I am defined by the things I enjoy doing. I am defined by all the tiny little things that makes me, me. And all those little things are so beautiful.
From me to me,
I see the road begin to climb
I see your stars begin to shine
I see your colours and I'm dying of thirst
All I know
Is that I love you so
So much that it hurts
From me to me, I love you.
Laughter is the best medicine. Everyone has got their own story. Nobody is better than the other. What we need in this world is a little bit more love. Enjoy the little things in life. Be grateful to be alive. Things so common we hear on a daily basis means so different to me now.
How would it be like when you truly, intimately love yourself? You feel, whole.
Drawing bounderies, recognising self-worth. Depends on where you stand it can be seen as self-love or selfish. 'If you love yourself you wouldn't want to let yourself continue feeling this way.' True.
Just because I can't do this doesn't mean I am worse than the other. I can, just I don't want to. And I can do other stuff instead - eg letting go and self love. I am brave. I am braver and stronger than I think I am.
This may seem like reassurance. But it's true.
I am no longer defined by my achievements, positions nor title. I am no longer defined by people's perspectives on me or how much they like me. I am defined by the things I enjoy doing. I am defined by all the tiny little things that makes me, me. And all those little things are so beautiful.
From me to me,
I see the road begin to climb
I see your stars begin to shine
I see your colours and I'm dying of thirst
All I know
Is that I love you so
So much that it hurts
From me to me, I love you.
Laughter is the best medicine. Everyone has got their own story. Nobody is better than the other. What we need in this world is a little bit more love. Enjoy the little things in life. Be grateful to be alive. Things so common we hear on a daily basis means so different to me now.
How would it be like when you truly, intimately love yourself? You feel, whole.
Friday, December 01, 2017
Stories of Growth
Realisations while jogging:
1. The thing about self-awareness is not to only let you be aware of your strengths and weaknesses, but to yes, be aware, but to not let it define you. As everything can be changed if you put your heart to it. In a society where everyone is fighting for attention and wanting to be special, the biggest freedom you can give yourself is to know that you are more than those labels and descriptions others or even yourself, put on you. You are not your weakness.
2. Rarely help will come in the form of a nicely-wrapped package and landing neatly on the front of your doorsteps. They can come in the form of heavy rain and thunder, in the form of cotton candy so wispy you can hardly feel it, in the form of rocks with hidden gems or even doesn't come at all. You just have to search for it hard enough, or to ask for it when it's not given. For indeed, the only person who can help you is yourself.
3. Success stories more like finally-overcoming-a-lot-of-challenges-and-obstacles-to-reach-a-new-stage-of-growth-just-to-face-with-even-more-challenges-but-the-thing-that-makes-the-process-so-rewarding-is-when-you-see-how-much-you-have-grown stories.
1. The thing about self-awareness is not to only let you be aware of your strengths and weaknesses, but to yes, be aware, but to not let it define you. As everything can be changed if you put your heart to it. In a society where everyone is fighting for attention and wanting to be special, the biggest freedom you can give yourself is to know that you are more than those labels and descriptions others or even yourself, put on you. You are not your weakness.
2. Rarely help will come in the form of a nicely-wrapped package and landing neatly on the front of your doorsteps. They can come in the form of heavy rain and thunder, in the form of cotton candy so wispy you can hardly feel it, in the form of rocks with hidden gems or even doesn't come at all. You just have to search for it hard enough, or to ask for it when it's not given. For indeed, the only person who can help you is yourself.
3. Success stories more like finally-overcoming-a-lot-of-challenges-and-obstacles-to-reach-a-new-stage-of-growth-just-to-face-with-even-more-challenges-but-the-thing-that-makes-the-process-so-rewarding-is-when-you-see-how-much-you-have-grown stories.
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